Post by Chiaki"Tal"Nagasaki on Jun 4, 2011 9:42:25 GMT -5
what is this feeling?;pain.
what is this on my cheeks?;tears.
what is this inside?;emotion.
how do i stop it?;you can't.
what is this on my cheeks?;tears.
what is this inside?;emotion.
how do i stop it?;you can't.
Dear Diary,
Could be doing better, but aside from major cuts and bruises I met my old friend again. Makes me wonder though if he's still mad at me for leaving, it wasn't exactly my choice it just happened. I just wanted to stay with him, and be able to be me for once. But no mother said I had to leave, hopefully Ao understands. I did not leave by my own choice, if I had any choice I would have run away and lived with him. But that is always to hard for mother to understand that at least one of her kids wanted to be different. Not all of us can be as perfect as my brother, he's just a goodie two-shoes or however that thing goes. He's the school kid, who has to be perfect, but life is supposed to be about having fun to right. Part of me just wants to take him into my arms and hold him again, or at least play like we used to as kids. Though now we are adults, so it's different now or is it really. I'd rather be a kid still, there was nothing that would help us from here on out besides well us. I have to make sure nothing happened to split us up again, I care about him way to much.
The heat won't leave my face, that blush and the effects of a cold maybe, why would I be blushing now. Then there is also the fact that I don't know who my room-mate is yet. I wish it was Ao but he already has a room-mate. Let's just hope it's someone I can get along with, part of him just wants to break but I can't break yet. Might as well just let it go, and hope things go better. He just doesn't know me that well, or maybe he does. I just wish he was here now, if I could hold onto him and just cry maybe it would be easier but he needs me. It's not about my problems, it never has been. And it's not going to be, It's time I actually tried to catch up with Ao.
Now just to get my mind back to working again,all It seems I am doing is sitting here with my head on the desk, coughing a bit to much for one day. Or my cold hasnt' completely gone away yet, not that I care. I just hope I can get some sleep tonight...and maybe this cold will go away, it was almost gone when I left home. The words that seem to pour out of my mouth, a song a melody even. One of sorrow, pain, confusion and yet there is a note of happiness in there. For some reason my heart hurts like it wants something, but my brain can't figure out what it is. It started when I ran into Ao earlier. I wonder why....but that's the end of this chapter...
Until Next Time,
Chiaki"Tal"Nagasaki[/left]
Mood; Happy yet confused
Listening to; Time after Time by QuietDrive
Eating; Ice pops and cake
Drinking; Green Tea
Thoughts; He came back...and yet I feel like I might lose him again if I let him out of my sight...Mother you will not take me away from Ao again...
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